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Ray and Mikey continued...
and here's the second part! ^_^ I'm still working on it, don't know what I'll be writing anymore.

"I love you too Gee, bye," I said smilign and hung up. "Wow...Gerard's engaged...to Frank...a few years ago....I would have thought Gerard would never get married..." I chuckled and wrapped my arms around Ray, kissing him happily.
"Hm...I think we should celebrate..." Ray grinning and pulled me up and into our bedroom, closing the door behind us.( ;) )
weeks later we were over at Gerard anf Frank's house helping them with everythign that needed to be done for their wedding, but I wans't feeling too great. I had to go to the bathroom multiple times and Gerard and Ray finally made me lay down on the couch. I managed to sleep for awhile until Ray gently shook me awake and took me home after sayign our goodbyes. This went on for weeks and I had lost weight from throwing up. We didn't know what was wrong with me, havign originally thought it was the stomach flu, but when it didn't go away, Ray wrapped me up in a blanket and took me to the doctor.
As I sat on the cool table, the doctor taking my vital signs, I answered his questions, wondering what could be going on. I started noticing I had become a bit moodier and that wasn't fun, for either of us. More than one of the uestions the doctor asked were quite embarassing, but I answered them anyway. He handed me a cup and sent me to the bathroom. Ray sat next to me onm the cold examination table as we waited for the test results to come back. Ray kissed me and told me that everythign would be all right when the doctor came in and hopped off the table.
"Well, Mr. Way, very good news is you're not ill..." he said smilign at me and I was very confused.
"Then why do I feel like shit and can't keep anything down?" he asked, again with the moodyness. Ray looked at me and squeezed my hand to get me calmed down.
"Then what is it doctor?" Ray as softly.
"You two will soon be...fathers," he said smilign at them. My jaw hit the floor and Ray sat silently in shock near me.
"HUH!?" we both finally said as we looked at him.
"It would apear you are pregnant Mr. Way," he said. "and from what you tell me...Mr. Toro here is the other parent," he said.
"But how is that even possible?" Ray asked.
"it's very complicated, and rare, but some alteration in Mikey's DNA has allowed him to become pregnant," he said simply.
"Wow...." I whispered and put my hand over my stoamche in awe.
"Now, you'll want to set up an appointment with a specialist soon," he said and gave Ray a pamphlet for me and he thanked him softly. The doctor nodded and said that we were free to go before he left. I slowly slid off the table, my hands still pressed against my stomach in awe.
"I just....I...I cna't believe it...I...I'm pregnant..." I whispered as Ray walked me out to the car and put me in it gently.
"I...I know Mikes...but this will be...wonderful," he smiled at me, but I was havign a hard time believing it. What if Ray left me? What if he decided he couldn't handle a baby? What if Gerard thought I was a freak? What would our fans think? Would it be the end of MCR? I would hate myself if that happened. I rode in the car silently, the whole way home and I knew Ray was worried about me. Once home, I went straight to the bedroom and lay down in the bed, curled up in silence for the longest time before I fell asleep.
The next day I talked to Gerard and told him. He seemed ok with it, but worried. He asked me all sorts of questions, and many I couldn't answer. Him and Frank came over later that day and we had a barbeque. It was nice, a lot of fun just hanging out with friends and family, just like old times. Ray was already coddling me like a porceline doll. He wouldn't let me do anything, thowing a hissy fit when I insisted he let me stand up to go to the bathroom. He was so cute when he worried though. Everyone ate and played games and talked until they couldn't do anythign else.
"Raaaaaaaaaaaay...." I yelled to my boyfriend, 7 months into my pregnancy. I had swelled up and I felt like I wanted to pop. I'm sure he was getting annoyed with me and I did feel bad...but I needed my ice cream...and my coffee of course.
"I'm coming babe...I'm coming," Ray was too good to me. He sat beside me onb the bed and set the tray with my ice cream and coffee on my lap. I smiled at him and kissed him gently.
"Thank you Ray Ray..." I grinned at him and ate my ice cream happily and downed my coffee as usual, the only thing that could never ever change. Life was going well. Gerard and Frank had planned their wedding for the comign weekend and I was excited but not at the same time. I had to find a nice outfit that looked good and fit over my ever growing stomach...and that was not going to be an easy task at all.

The wedding was going to be a beautiful affair, I only wish I felt better. My stomach felt crampy, but I didn't tell anyone, not wanting to ruin the festivities. The ceremony was about to begin and I sat with Ray, holding his hnad as I rubbed my stomach. I was obviously not hiding anythign from Ray because he looked at me aprehensively. The music started and Gerard and Frankie made their way down the aisle and the minister started speaking. I cursed Gerard and Frank for havign such a long ceremony. A little over half way through the ceremony my eyes went wide and my gaze travelled to my crotch. I hadn't just peed my pants had I? No...no, that was most deffinetly not pee. I looked over at Ray and he knew right away what was wrong.I felt horrible, interrupting the ceremony, but there would be no way to leave inconspicuously seeing as we were in the front row. I stood and hobbled my way down the isle. Ray apologized to people that looked as we passed, and Gerard and Frankie of course noticed and Gerard looked at Frank before chasing after us. Everyone sat in dead silence as they tried to decide what exactly had happened, but I was too busy trying to ignore the stabbign pain in my abdomen as Ray said soemthing to my doctor on the phone.
"Mikey! Mikey! Stop! What's wrong?!" Gerard called as Ray hurried me to our car.
"Gerard! I'm so sorry...I messed up your wedding. The...the baby's coming..." I managed to get out as another contraction washed over me and I gripped my stomach.
"Oh! Oh Mikey!" Gerard was clearly worried. "I...I'll come with you!" he said quickly.
"No! Go back to your wedding Gee," I felt horrible for ruining their wedding and I motioned for him to go as Ray closed the door and got itno the driver's seat, rushign me to the hospital. I wasn't in there two minutes after Ray signed me in before I was taken back ot a room in the maternity room that had been specially set up for me and any complications that may come around because of my...situation. I held Ray's hand and he tried to comfort me, my eyes falling shut. I heard, and felt, the nurses moving around and taking my vitals, but then a new hand came to rest on my forehead. As I opened my eyes, my brother and parents came into view and I was fairly certain Frankie was just behind Gerard, the scene a bit blurred because they had taken my glasses.
"You...you guys shouldn't have..." I muttered.
"Oh come on...I wouldn't miss my only brother giving birth for anythign," Gerard smiled.
"and I wouldn't miss my brother-in-law giving birth. Would you mind if I video taped it and sold it to one of those medical oddity shows?" Frank asked with a laugh and Gerard hit him lightly over the head. "Hey! I was just kidding," he pouted and Gerard kissed him gently as another contraction hit home.
"Well Mr. Way, it looks like this baby isn't going to wait for us much longer. We'll get you prepped for a c-section and you should be holding your new baby within the hour," one of the nurses said, smilign at me before leavign to get the doctor. Ray kissed my forehead and I hugged Gerard, my arents and frank before I was pushed into a seperate room for my surgery. Ray stayed with me, and it didn't seem long at all before they lay a small, screaming little boy, bundled up on my chest. I smiled and touched his head before looking up again as the doctor visiby frowned, handing the nurse, somethign. He was blocking my view, but the looks on everybody's faces, including Ray's was nto reassuring. Ray kissed my head gently and told me everythign would be ok, but from his tone, I knew everythign was far from ok. They got me cleaned up and took my son so they could monitor him before taking me back into the other room. A nurse came in a short bit later, a grave look on her face.
"Mr. Way. Your son seems to be a perfectly healthy little boy. However, it seems you were carryign another, smaller, baby girl. We have her in an incubator and we're monitoring her. Her vitals aren't stable and these next few weeks will be hard for her," she explained softly.
"But...I...why?" I asked softly, not knowing why she would possibly in such poor condition.
"It's probably due to the....circumstances of the birth. Now, this is not at all your fault Mr. Way. There are just a lot of complications with this kind of pregnancy, as to be expected. The outlook for her survival is good. It's just going to take time, effort and patience on everyone's part. Most impirtantly thoguh...it's going to take faith," she said and I just sat there, frozen in fear for my little daughter's life. Ray pulled me close and held me agaisnt his chest, lettign the nurse leave as he stayed to comfort me, stroking my hair. Gerard left and returned with coffee for me and I thanked him, sipping at it as I tried to relax just a bit. We talked about names, realizing we hadn't discussed that quite yet.
"How about Gerard?" Gerard suggested, and chuckled.
"And why would I name my baby after you?"
"Because I'm amazing!" he smiled at me and I rolled my eyes before lookign to Ray.
"Mm...I like Joshua...Joshua Daniel" he said softly and I smiled, nodding in agreement.
"And for our daughter?" I asked "I like Katelyn Marie," and Ray agreed.
"So, we have Joshua Daniel Way Toro and Katelyn Marie Way-Toro," Ray said, testign the names and I grinned.
"Two wonderful names for two amazing children. Can we go see them?" I asked softly and Ray went to get the nurse, who took Ray and me to see our babies. We saw Joshua first and I got to hold him again. HE was adorable and looked just like Ray. I smiled up at him and he leaned down to kiss me. "He looks just like you," I said softly.
"Yeah...let's just hope he doesn't get my hair," he chuckled.
"Aw...but I love your hair," and for infasis I reached up and touched it happily. "I think it's adorable," I chuckled lightly and we took turns holding him a bit longer before giving him back to the nurse and going to see Katelyn in the NICU. She was so tiny and it broke my heart to see her attatched to everythign she was. She looked so helpless and I just wanted to hold her and squeeze her, but knew I couldn't. We were able to touch her through the openings in the side of her incubator and I stroked her little hand, trying not to cry as I talked to her. Ray rubbed my back slowly for comfort. It seemed like forever before we had to leave so the doctors could run tests on her and feed her and what not. Ray took me back to my room and I tried to get a few hours of sleep. The day's events had worn me out.
My doctor had made me stay in the hospital for monitoring over the next week, even though nothing was wrong with me, but finally I was going home! I was more than happy as the nurse handed Joshua to me and I smiled down at him. "Hey there baby boy. Are you ready to go home?" I asked softly and smiled as he cooed in response. I kissed the top of his little head before putting him into his carrier. We weren't permitted to take Katelyn home yet, but teh doctor assured me we would more than likely only have to wait another week or two before we could take her home. Ray drove us home and I smiled, taking Joshua around to give him the whole tour before putting him down in his crib in the nursery. "Your sister will be home soon too...and then we'll have our big happy family," I spoke softly to him as I rubbed his stomach. "Your daddy and I love you very much. You're life isn't going to be easy...and I'm sorry for it, I really am, but I'm going to try and be the best...parent you could ever ask for. I want to make your life as amazing as I possibly can," he was starting to fall asleep. I hummed softly to him as he fell alseep. I turned on the baby monitor, and clipped the other to my back pocket before heading out of the room and found Ray sitting on the couch, looking through some old photo albums I always kept around the house. I sat down next to him and cuddled into his side, looking at the pictures with him.
"You were such an adorable little toddler," Ray said smiling at me and I chuckled lightly.
"Yeah...guess I was..." I smiled. "Gerard said I could keep these photos. He never wanted anyone else to see them," I chuckled.
"Aw...wonder why not. They're not all /that/ embarassing," Ray chuckled as he looked at a picture of a butt naked 3 year-old Gerard bent over a cookie jar, totally busted.
"I know right?" I laughed and smiled at Ray, kissing him happily. "Mm...I'm just glad I'm getting skinny again. I wanna play again...get the guys together and jam," I smiled.

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Ray and Mikey story...don't have a title, but I'm sure Rissa will think of one.she's good at that:)
Here's the first part of my Ray and Mikey story I've been workign on...^_^

It was a gloomy overcast day and I had yet to leave the house, not feeling the need to move from my spot on the couch. Gerard had gone out to do...Gerard things and I was stuck at home with nothign to do. Gerard had suggested practicing a bit, or maybe callign someone to hang out with, but with my luck, noone was home. I finally persuaded myself to stand up from the couch and I headed to the kitchen to scavenge for food. Pulling out a jug of orange juice, I poured myself a glass before returning to my spot infront of the television. I nearly hit the roof when a knocking came from the front door. Frowning slightly, a rose from my seat and went to answer it, wondering who it could possibly be.
A smile tugged at the corner of my lips as a mass of bushy hair came into view. "Hey!" I exclaimed happily. "You got my message?" I questioned and the other male nodded. I let him in.
"Yeah...sorry I didn't answer when you called, couldn't get to the phone in time," Ray chuckled and shrugged off his coat. "Thanks Mikes..." he grinned as I took his coat for him.
"No problem...make yourself at home..Gee's not home..." I said and he nodded, going to take my place on the couch. "hey, that's my spot," I teased, sitting in his lap. "Hm...you're comfy..." I poked his cheek with a soft laugh.
"Great...now I'm a chair for you?" he asked with a chuckle, wrappign his arms around my middle and grabbign my sides. I yelped and jumped up, trying to escape his tickling. "Nope! You are not gettign away from me that easily Way!" his arms held me fast, close to his warm chest. I felt the tinge of pink creep up my cheek bones.
"Come on....lemme go..." I whined, but cuddled back into his chest despite my own words.
"Aw...Mikes I will never let you go...you have to stay here forever and ever 'till the end of time!" He exclaimed and laughed, almost evily, but I knew he was just joking.
"Ok!" I shrugged and rested my head back against his shoulder, sneezing when his hair tickled my nose.
"You're silly Mikes..." he chuckled and sighed softly. "Hm...wanna play a game?" he asked looking at me.
"Hm...sure...what did you have in mind?" I asked, smiling at him after I moved some of his hair out of the way.
"Um..turth or dare?" he questioned, grinned at me.
"Uh...truth..." I nodded.
"Boring..." he chuckled. "Ok...what's your worst fear?"
"large bodies of water..." I shuddered at the very thought. "Truth or dare?" I shot back the question before he could coment on my fear.
"Truth..." he ndoded and smiled cutely at me, my heart melting.
"Ok...." I thought for a moment. "Would you ever kiss a guy?" I asked, knowing it might come across as an awkward question, and as far as I knew he was straight, but I was curious.

"Well...it would depend on the guy..." he chuckled and moved some hair lightly out of my face.
"Fair enough..." I nodded smiling at him. "Hm...I'm sleepy..." I yawned and moved off his lap so I was sitting next to him. "Let's watch a movie or somethign..." I said and turned on the television as I spoke. I felt his arms return around my waist and my arms slid around him, my head finding his shoulder as if it were a natural thing. I hardly registered Ray pullign a blanket around me, already half asleep. He must have removed my glasses as well because when I woke up awhile later they were off. I cuddled closer to the warm body next to me that was now asleep as well.

I knew this was a position that could be taken in many wrong ways, but I didn't want to move, I was comfortable. I didn't hear the door open or my brother come into the room. "Hey Mikey..." he stopped at the sight of me cuddled up into Ray's side. "What's...going...on?" he asked, but I 'shh'ed him so he wouldnt' wake Ray. He didn't seem upset, disgusted, angry, or....anything I had thought I would see in his features, just confused. He shrugged and left it, goign to get somethign to eat before heading to bed. I smiled and cuddled back itno Ray and returned to my happy state of sleep. Neither of us woke until teh next morning, not having moved at all in the night. I looked over at him with a groggy smile and his eyes cracked open to look at me.
"morning..." he mumbled and ruffled my already messy hair. "sleep well?" he asked with a soft chuckle and I nodded.
"Very well...you really are very comfy..." I grinned widely at him. He chuckled and kissed my cheek quickyl before standing up. Ray had always seemed to have an unhuman ability to have energy when he first woke up in the morning, it was rather annoying. I on the other hand, needed coffee before I could really wake up and begin the day.

I stood up after grabbing Ray's hand to help me balance a bit before heading to the kitchen to get soem coffee. I whined slightly, the coffee not already made like it usually was since Gerard was still asleep so I had to do it myself. I folded my arms on the counter and put my head on my arms to watch the coffee brewing. "I hate this!" I whined and sighed.
"Aw...poor Mikes..." Ray patted my back before giving me a gentle hug around the waist.
"Yeah poor me!" I said and groaned. "This thing is too slow...I need my coffee..." I pouted, this wasn't fun.

"I know you do..." he said and petted my head, probably in attempt to calm me down, and it was working. I clsoed my eyes and sighed, standing up a bit to lean back against him. "There...now let's go and you can take a shower and get dressed while you wait for your coffee..." he said and I reluctantly nodded, makign my way to my bathroom to take a shower and getdressed.
"Is it done yet?" I asked impatiently, coming out and Ray grinned, handing me a cup of my favorite coffee from Starbucks.
"There...now you don't have to wait..." he grinned at me.
"Wow....you're so amazing! How did you remember this was my favorite?" I asked, takign a drink from the cup and savoring the flavor on my tongue.
"I remember things...?"" he asked with a chuckle and kissed my head with a grin.
"aw...you're so sweet....I could kiss you!" I said happily.
"Then why don't you?" he asked and I thought I had heard him wrong, or he was just kidding.
"Wh....what?" he asked softly.
"if you could kiss me....then why don't you?" he repeated. Before I could respond I found my lips covered by Ray's and I nearly dropped my cup of coffee, but managed to set it down to slide my arms around his neck.

I felt his strong arms move around me and hold me close as we kissed, it was amazing! It would have been more amazing if Gerard hadn't woken up and had come in on us kissing.
"Oh get a room you two..." he said, shaking his head and went into the livingroom after grabbign my arm to drag me with him.
"What is it Gee?" I asked.
"What do you think it is Mikey? Look...you know I don't care if you're gay or bisexual or..whatever...but...our fans...if they find out..." he shook his head lightly. "I don't want you to get hurt if they find out..." he shrugged.
"Gee....stop your worrying...I'm good at keeping secrets..." I said and he gave me that look. The look that said he wasn't buying what I was saying. "Ok...maybe I'm not great at keeping things a secret..." I caved. "but I don't even know what this means...it was a little kiss..." I shrugged lightly, looking at my feet.
"Just be careful Mikey....I don't want you to get hurt..." this was Gerard playign mother hen again and I just hugged him.
"I'll be fine Gee..." I said, trying to reassure my worried sibling. I grinned at him before heading back to my coffee and Ray. "Gee's being his paranoid self..." I chuckled lightly and hugged him.
"I bet..." he said softly and wrapped his arms around my waist again.
"So...what does this mean?" I asked, lookign slightly up at him.
"Well...I hope that it means that you are my boyfriend and I'm yours..." he said with a soft smile.
"Well...then we have the same hopes..." grinning, I kissed him lightly again.
"you taste good..." he laughed and I shrugged grinning and picked up my cup of coffee again. HE gently took my hand and led me into the kitchen where Gerard was having his cup of coffee. "Morning Gerard..." he greeted my brother and Gerard nodded to him in response as he drank from his cup of coffee.
"You were sleeping in so I had to make the coffee..." I stated with a grin.
"Well...I'm sorry I wasn't up in time to make you coffee....I was tired...didn't sleep well last night.,.." he shrugged.
"Oh....I'm sorry Gee..." I said and hugged him with a smile. "hopefully you'll sleep better on tour..." I nodded with a laugh. I was excited about going on tour again, it seemed like ages since we had been on the road, when in reality it hadn't been that long.
"yep...next week...gotta get packing soon...don't want to forget anything like you always do Mikey..." Gerard laughed and I shrugged with a grin.
"I'm sorry I'm forgetful sometimes....can't help it," I nodded and laughed.
"I should probably get going..." Ray said and hugged me from behind. "I'll see you two later..." kissing me gently he let go of me and left. I watched him leave before sinking down into my seat. This was amazing! I couldn't believe I was going out with Ray Toro, especially since I had never ever once in my whole life thought I'd be with a guy, but I guess I had been starting to think and feel different things when I was around him. Gerard excused himself and went to get ready fro the day and I sat at the table, sipping my coffee Ray had brought me.

"I'm going out today..." Gerard said, grabbing a piece of toast and ruffling my hair.
"Where are you headed off to? Don't you ever just...stray home anymore?" I chuckled and shook my head.
"Where I'm going is out, and as for if I ever just stay home....nope," he laughed and left the house. I shrugged lightly and went to make sure I had everything and got everything that I would need to wash together and in the washing machein.
The next week I talked to Ray often. Gerard said I was just in the "lovey dovey teenage girl fantasy crush" faze of my new relationship. I didn't know what it was, but I liked it, it was very nice. Gerard went on and on and on about needing to be careful and abotu how if anyone found out it could ruin everything, he's so paranoid. The day that we were leavign finally arrived and I took my bags and dropped them by the front door, waiting excitedly for the bus to come pick us up.
"Rememebr Mikey...be careful with Ray during the tour...don't go anywhere you can be seen doign something innapropriate..." Gerard told me.
"Alright mother, I'll be careful...I promise...get that stick out of your ass and just calm down..." I said. This was starting to get a bit annoying. I was so glad to see the bus roll up infrotn of our house. I grabbed my bags and practically ran out to the bus, getting on when the door opened. I greated Frank and Bob and finally hugged Ray happily. We hadn't told anyone except Gerard, but we planned on tellign Bob and Frank as soon as we were all settled in on the bus.
Once veryone was settled in and watching TV, I stood up and moved to stand infront of them so I knew I'd have their attention. "Um...guys...me and Ray have...somethign to tell you..." I started.
"Are you two finally going out?" Frank muttered, lookign at me with that impish grin of his that was so annoying.
"Wait...what?" I asked, not believing he had guessed that.
"Oh come on...if yout wo aren't togetehr than you just need to quick being so shy and tell each other how much you like each other...it's completely obvious you like each other..." he rolled his eyes. Ray chuckled softly and stood up, taking my hand.
"Well...yes, we're together now Frank....good guess..." Ray chuckled, wrapping his arms around me and pulled me down into his lap as he sat back down on the couch. I smiled and cuddled back into his chest as we resumed watchign TV, glad everyone seemed cool with it. Gerard looked over at Frank with look of...soemthing. I couldn't tell exactly what it was, so shugged it off when gerard resumed watching the television. It was a prettly relxed day and everyone hit their bunks early. ONce everyone was in their bunks, I heard whispering coming from the bunk above mine, Gerard's. I moved enough so I could easily make out parts of the conversation. I was positive it was Frank and Gerard and they were whispering. Something about telling something, somethign about me and Ray and somethign about two years. I sighed and rested my head back as I heard Frank slide from Gerard's bunk and let my eyes fall shut, easily fallign asleep. The next morning I woke up next to a warm body, my face burried in Ray's hair and I chuckled lightly.
"Hey sleepy head..." I laughed softly, getting his bushy hair out of my mouth. HE opened his eyes and smiled widely at me.
"Bey..." he said and kissed me lightly. "ew...mornign breath..." he said laughign and rolled out of my bunk. "come on...you;re so slow..."
"I'm sleepy..." I whined playfully and rolled out of the bed, taking his hand to head to the kitchen. I grinned smelling the coffee already made. "Great.." I said and poured myself a cup. It wasnt long after that Gerard and Frank came into the kitchen, already fully dressed and seemed to have been awake for awhile.
"Good morning guys..." Gerard greeted Ray and I. He seemed very bright and cheerful that morning, which I didn't understand until Ray elbowed me and my gaze travelled down seeing Gerard's fingers tangled with Frank's.
"You two..are....sicne when?" I asked with a laugh and hugged my brother and then Frank happily.
"Since December 24th...." Gerard paused.
"2004..." Frank grinned widely.
"WHAT?!?!?!?!" my eyes went wide. "Yout two have been dating for over two years and you didn't tell anyone?!" I asked, not believing they had kept it a secret for so long.
"Frankie and I decided not to tell anyone..." Gerard shrugged lightly. "I'm sorry we didn't tell you Mikey but..." he shrugged. "we just....thought it would be for the best I guess..." he tried to explain. "please don't be mad at us Mikey..."
"I'm not mad at you Gee....I'm happy for you..." I said and hugged him again with a smile and a soft sigh. "You're good..." I laughed softly.
"I know I am," he grinned and ruffled my hair.
"but why did you want to keep it a secret? You know we'd all still love you guys..." I nodded.
"Well I wanted to tell you guys, but Gee didn't wanna..." Frank said smilign at Gerard who stuck his tongue out at him.
"I just...I know you guys would have accepted it...I'm just so paranoid about the press and I thought that...that the more poeple that knew the harder it would be to keep it on the DL with the press..." my brother shrugged. so...I'm sorry about lying to you and keeping it a secret about wherre I went like every day and stuff..."
"I understand....and I forgive for being your paranoid bone headed self..." I laughed and dodged a hit from Gerard and hid behind Ray, laughing.
"Whatevewr....we're going to be stopping soon so you might want to get dressed and get shoes on since I know you you'll want to go out and look around. Just be careful...we haven't driven off without somebody for a long time...don't want to break our good chain..." my brother chuckled and left the kitchen after getting his coffee. Frank smiled and got himself some coffee before following his boyfriend almost like a puppy dog.
"Wow....I can't believe they have been together for over two years and noone knew about it....I mean, sure everyone thought they'd get together, but noone thought they were togetehr already..." Ray laughed and gave me a gentle squeeze before heading off to find his shoes. I smiled and watched him leave before pickign up my cup of coffee. Everyone knew which mug was mine. It was white with a frowning face on one side with "before coffee" under it and a smiling face on the other side with "after coffee" on it and it deffinetly fit me. I was even worse than Gerard without my coffee.
"Man...I hope we last as long as Gee and Frankie..." I muttered to myself as I stood in the kitchen thinking and smiling softly to myself.

I was starting to see what Gerard had been telling me about. It was difficult to make sure of every little detail when we were off the bus. I was so worried about being too close too Ray, acting suspicious around him, doign anythign that could possibly raise suspicion about us being more than just friends. It was tough, but we were gettign through the first few weeks without anyone finding anythign out, but it was drivign me insane.
"Hey..." I smiled at him as I came into the kitchen and gave him a peck on the lips before pouring myself a glass of water.
"Mikey...this isn't working..." he said with a sigh.
"What isn't working?" I asked.
"this..." he motioned between us. "I mean...not this..." he motioned again. "This is great, perfect even...but the hiding and the being paranoid all teh time...it's drivign me insane.." he said, wrapping his arms around me.
"I know...same with me...but what can we do?" I asked, setting my cup down to hug him back, resting my head against his shoulder.
"We could...I mean...we could tell everyone..." he said softly.
"We could...but...do we want to? Are we ready for that?" I asked
"I don't honestly think I can stand it much longer..." he replied, holding me close and rockign slightly. "but...I think it would be better to do it before they just figure it out on their own..."
"Yeah...it would be better to do it when we want to then to just have everyone find out..." I agreed. "but I'm scared Ray..." I admitted softly into his hair.
"I know you are Mikes, so am I but...we could get through it together..." he said softly. "but I think we should talk to Gerard, Frank and Bob first...see what they think about the idea..." he nodded.
"Yeah...but I just...I don't want to do anythign because Gerard says we should or shouldn't...I've done everything my whole life based on what Gerard says...but we should see what the guys think about it first..." I nodded and smiled, kissing him gently.
"Ok, it;'s settled then...we'll talk to the guys tonight at dinner..." he smiled and kissed me back.
"Got it..." I nodded and sighed softly, just holding onto him for a long while, just enjoying being there with him.
"Oh break it up you two...geez you'd think you were attatched at the hip..." Bob laughed, coming into the kitchen to get somethign to eat.
"I'm sorry Bobby wobby...you aren;t gettign any love...?" I asked, moving over to hug him.
"Get offa me!" He laughed, pushing me away
"Aw..." I pouted playfully and stuck my tongue out at him before grabbign Ray's hand and heading back to the bedroom. "I wanna take a nap before tonight's concert...care to join me?" I asked him smiling.
"I would love to join you Mikes..." he said and crawled into the bunk we had been sharign the whole tour. We never did more than cuddle, neither of us ready for anythign more than that and we were both more than content with cuddling.
We took a nice long nap together and took our time untangling our limbs and rolling out of the bunk when Gerard told us to get out of bed and get ready for the show. I hugged and kissed Ray smiling. "you're amazing..." I grinned and he laughed softly.
"So are you my Mikes..." he hugged me close and rubbed small circles on my back.
"Hm...I don't wanna move...this is nice..." I muttered as I burried my face in his neck. We stayed like that for awhile until Frank came in and jumped on Ray laughign. "come on! You guys are too slow!" he laughed and I shook my head.
"We're coming..." Ray muttered with a laugh, pushign Frank off of him.
"Ok!" he ran back to Gerard and stole a kiss before getting off the bus and heading inside the building.
"Well...lt's go before Frank comes back and pounces on you again," I chuckled and helped him up, hugging and kissing him again before heading off the bus and inside. The performance went off without any problems and we all headed back to the bus to eat and crash for the night. As we all sat around the table for dinner, I looked at Ray and then Gerard, Frank and Bob.
"Um...guys...we wanted to talk to you about something..." I started.
"What is it Mikey? Ray?" Gerard asked, looking between us.
"We...we were talking...and we were thinkign about um...we were thinking about coming out...not hiding anymore..." Ray said softly and nodded.
Everythign was silent except for the clattering of Frank's fork beiing dropped to his plate.
"WHAT?!?! ARE YOU COMPLETELY INSANE?!" Gerard finally broke the unbearable silence."DO YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT TODAY'S SOCIETY?!" He was beat red as he yelled. HE stood up and threw down his napkin, storming off to the bunks. Frank looked at the three of us before standing up and chasing after his boyfriend. I sunk down into my seat and covered my face. I felt warm arms embrace me and I knew instantly it was Ray. I wrapped my arms around his waist and held onto him. I heard Bob excuse himself to the living room, not feeling comfortable in the middle of the comotion.
"Coem on Mikes..." Ray said softly, gently pulling me up and holding me to his chest. I wrapped my arms around his middle and cried into his bushy hair. I couldn't believe that my brother had just flat out yelled at me. He just held onto me and let me cry until I felt someone else pull me into their arms. I knew imediately who it was. All those scary nights when I was little, the thunder storms that scared me, the movies that spooked me, the nightmares that kept me awake at night, and the arms I always retreated to. I held onto my brother and he soothed me.
"I'm sorry for yellign at you Mikey...I just...I'm scared for you...everyone will see you differently..." he whispered as he held me close and I knew Ray had left, leaving me and my brother alone. "I just want to protect you Mikey...you're my baby brother and I care about you..." he rocked me gently like he use to.
"I....I know Gee...." I finally spoke. "I know you do....but you can't always protect me from everything..." I said softly.
"I know I can't...but I can't help but try..." he said softly.
"Gee...I love you...you're my brother but you're so paranoid sometimes..." I smiled softly at him, wiping my face. "I know it works for you and Frank, but Ray and I...we just...we can't stand this...it's tearing us both apart inside..." I said softly and Gerard nodded, pattign me on the back gently.
"Well...ok...Mikey...I'll be here for you and I'll be behind you 110% no matter what," he smiled at me and messed up my hair playfully. "just...make sure you're both ready before going through with it...because there will be no turning back once you come out..." he said softly and I smiled, nodding.
"Ok Gerard...I promise...we'll be careful..." I nodded smiling.
"Good...now go make sure Ray knows I didn't kill you...and get to bed early...long day tomorrow..." he laughed and I hugged him once more before heading to our bunk and crawled under the blankets with my boyfriend.
"Ray..." I smiled at him.
"yes Mikes?" he asked.
"I....I love you..." I said softly so only he could hear me.
"I....I love you too Mikes...." he smiled at me and pulled me close, pressing his lips to mine. I had tiptoed around admitting that I loved Ray, afraid that I'd scare him...or he wouldn't love me back, but I finally told him and was more than relieved at his reponse. I cuddled closer to him, holding onto him. "So...Gerard isn't mad at you?" he asked softly, stroking my untidy hair.
"No...he apologized for yellign and just said to be careful...I told him we would be..." I smiled and kissed his jaw, just below his ear, knowing that was his sensitive spot. His eyes fluttered shut and he smiled.
"Oh stop it..." he laughed softly and nuzzled his head into my hair.
"nuuu...." I whined with a laugh and moved up to kiss him gently on the lips. "Love you Ray Ray," I smiled faintly.
"love you too my little chaton," he smiled at me. He had learned what kitten was in french and thought it was cute. I liked it, it was a cute pet name. He never called me that in public, only when we were alone, sort of like a secret.
"nap time..." I smiled and rested my head in his neck, burrying my face in his hair.
"Go to sleep love..." he whispered and it didn't take long for me to fall asleep in his arms.
"Come on guys!" Gerard came into the room and shook me awake.
"wadda you wan?" I mumbled, looking up at my brother with blurry vision.
"Come on you two...we're stopped and you guys need to get up if you want to get anything while we're stopped..." Gerard said and left. I sighed and shook Ray gently.
"I'm gonna go buy some stuff...you want anything?" I asked him.
"just...I'll come too..." he said and we roleld out of the bunk. After straightening ourselves out, we headed off the bus and into teh gas station. I grabbed soem chips, cookies, and Mt. Dew, and of course some more coffee. After we all finished buying what we wanted, we headed back to the bus.
We had decided that it wouldn't be the best idea, not now anyway. Gerard, Frank, and Bob all thought it would be the best for everyone and we ended up agreeing. We had been out one day, just takign a break and relaxing a bit. The tour was winding down now and we were lookign forward to it beign over and being able to go home and do whatever we wanted without too much worry. Ray and I had been joking around and I had ended up jumping on his back for a piggy back ride. I rested my head down on his shoulder and sighed softly, closing my eyes.
"Come on...let;s head back to the bus..." Gerard said.
"We'll join you guys later...I'm going to go pick up some beer and I think Mikey's just gonna stay like that..." Ray laughed and I smiled, nodding my head against his shoulder.
"Ok...be careful you two..." Gerard stated before heading back to the bus with Bob and Frank and Ray continued down the street.
"This is nice...just you and me...noone's around..." Ray nodded and I slid off of his back, walkign next to him.
"Yep...noone around...just you and me and no worries..." I smiled and leaned up to kiss him on the cheek. Noone was around, there was nothing to worry about. I grabbed his hand and twirled around laughing and dancing badly, just having fun. A rat scampered across the pavement and I jumped into Ray's warm embrace. He held me and I held him, catchign my breath. I felt his hand move through my hair comfortingly.
"Calm down...it's ok...it was just a mous..." he bent his neck and kissed the top of my head. I smiled and pulled away from him.
"Let's head back...it's getting cold out here...." I laughed and he nodded in agreement. We headed back to the bus and hung out there the rest of the night.
"Holy fucking damn!" woke me up the next morning. I rolled out of bed and hit the floor. I made my way out to see what was going on. Gerard was standing in front of the television, face red with anger. When I looked at the screen I nearly fainted. A video of Ray holding me and kissing my head the previous night showed clearly on the screen. I sunk to my knees as I listened to the news reporter.
"Last night, Ray Toro and Mikey Way from My Chemical Romance were discovered in an ally together, doing unmentionables," the reporter chuckled. "people are working on discovering how long this fling has been going on between these band mates, as well as trying to discover if Gerard Way, brother of Mikey, as well as fellow band mate knew about his not so innocent brother's actions with not only another man, but one of his band mates. We will bring you more news as soon as we find out..." the voice ended as the television was suddenly shut off. I burried my face in my hands and just shook. I couldn't believe this. Not only was our secret out, but the stupid reporter had made up a load of crap and now everyone thought I was doing naughty things with Ray in public. It wasn't even a real kiss or anything.
"Come on Mikes..." I heard Ray's voice just as I felt his arms move around me and hold me close to him, trying to comfort me.
"I cna't believe this..." Gerard said angrily and headed off the bus, slammign the door as he went. I cuddled back into Ray, trying not to cry. He rubbed my sides slowly, tryign to comfort me more.
"Hey...now we don't have to hide anything.." Ray said softly, trying to make it seem not as bad as it really was, but I knew that it really was as bad as it seemed.
"They made up stuff....they want to make us look bad...I don't know why! We never did anythign to them! They're just tyring to give a jucy story!" I finally spoke, sniffling a bit.
"Shh...shhh Mikes...ignore them...they don't matter...I've got you...I'm going to take care of you and it'll be ok..." Ray soothed, stroking my hair slowly.
"Thanks Ray Ray...." I muttered. "and I'm here for you..." I assured him with a soft smile.
"I know you are Mikes...."
"coem on...we should go make sure Gerard doesn't kill anyone..." I stood up and helped Ray up before heading off the bus. Looking around I didn't spot my brother anywhere and I was really worried about where he had gotten himself to. We eventually found him, sittign against a brick wall. Blood covered his knuckles and there was some on the side of the building where my brother had taken his anger out on the brick. I shook my head lightly and knealt down infront of him, looking him in the eye softly. "gerard....bro....come on..." I said softly, trying to sooth his anger a bit.
"Mikey...I just...no! I cna't believe they did this to you...to both of you..." Gerard said. "I'm so mad! They're going to pay for it...I swear they're going to wish they had never gone into news reporting..." Gerard said amd it took both Ray and I holdign him down for him to not run off down the street and kill someone.
"Come on Gerard..." Ray said softly, helping me lift him up and take him back onto the bus. We handed him over to Frank who said he was going to clean Gerard up a bit, and then took his boyfriend into the bathroom to do so.
"Man...." I sighed, leaning into Ray slowly.
"I hear you on that one..." he agreed, holding me close. We just stayed there for what seemed like forever.
"come on..." I took his hand gently and headed off the bus.
"And where are we going?" he asked, smilign at me.
"Hm...I don't know..." I laughed as I walked down the street with him. I was trying not to think about what everyone was thinking, trying not to imagine everyone lookign at us, but it wasn't working. "We could...go get somethign to eat..." I suggested and he shrugged lightly.
"That sounds good to me love...are you sure you want to do this? Just be completely open with everything...?" Ray asked, ookign at me.
"I...I mean...we're already out...there's not much else we can do about it...can we?" I asked softly.
"guess not...but I mean...we could say it was just a hoax...a set up..." he said softly.
"No...because I don't want to lie anymore..." I said softly, kissing him gently. "I love you so much Ray...and I don't want to lie and hide it anymore..." I said softly, smilign faintly at him. "I know it'll be hard...but I know we'll get through this...together..." I nodded.
"YEs we will...because nothing can stop us when we're together..." he smiled at me, hugging me close for a long moment.
"Come on...I'm hungry..." I laughed, pulling away. I grbabed his hand before taking off down the street, looking for somewhere to eat. I finally stopped at a fast food restraunt and headed inside. We sat, eating and laughign and just having fun and not caring anymore, everythign was going to be fine. We knew that it was better that we were out and now we could be ourselves and we shouldn't worry about what anyone else thought.
Weeks passed and everything was going great! Ray and I were enjoying being out, being able to hold hands and go out togetehr in public, but it was obvious that the pressure was rising in Gerard and Frank.
"Do you really think I would do that Gerard!?" Frank yelled as I opened the door. I quickly stopped and left the door at a crack so I could listen.
"I don't know Frank! Every since Ray and Mikey were outed you've been going on about why we aren't! You know that they didn't choose to come out and you know why I don't want to!" Gerard yelled in response.
"You don't want to because you're afraid! But news flash Gerard there's nothign to be scared about...obviously! Look, I know you're scared, and I know if we came out people would probably think a bit differently of us but it's not like you're going to get murdered walkign down the street! I don't think you're scared, because you've seen there's nothing to be scared of! I think you're ashamed..." he said the last part softer and my eyes went wide.
"How dare you say that Frank?! I'm not ashamed of anythign! I love you more than anyone on this planet you know that!" Gerard said.
"Yeah? Well if you aren't ashamed then why can't we come out huh?! Why do we have to keep hiding?! It's so hard....walking with you and Bob and Ray and Mikey and Ray and Mikey are holding hands and I can't hold yours because you don't want anyone to know!"
"I am not fuckign ashamed Frank! If I was ashamed of you or us do you think I would have stayed with you for almost three years now?!" Gerard shook his head and pushed past Frank. I quickly moved before Gerard left the room. I sighed and shook my head lightly, going to curl up on the couch with Ray, not knowing what to say to Gerard or Frank to try and help them work thigns out. After a long while, Frank came out of the room. He had clearly been crying, but tried to hide it, though that wasn't working too well. He looked at Ray and I and smiled softly at up before disapearing into the kitchen.
"I'm worried about them..." I said softly, lookign at Ray who nodded.
"So am I..." he whispered, kissing my forhead gently.
"should I go find Gerard and talk to him about it?" I asked, havign told Ray about what had happened.
"Yeah...and I'll talk to Frank..." he seperated. Gerard wasn't on the bus and I cursed under my breath before heading off the bus to go in search of my brother.
"Gerard?!" I yelled as I walked down the street, eventually finding a large group of people gathered around, mumbling things as they watched a news reporter talking to a camera.
"Yes, it would seem that the past can indeed come back to haunt you. Has America lost Gerard Way again to alcohol? Only time will tell," the lady said and my eyes went wide. I pushed through people, some movign out of my way when they saw me and others I had to push roughly.
"Turn that damn thing off or else I'll break it into a hundred pieces and shove it so far up your ass you'll be throwing it back up!" I threatened the camera man who imediately turned the camera off. I gave everyone a death glare until they started to back off before turnign to my brother who was layign on teh ground, spilled beer mixed with broken glass near him and he had clearly fallen over. I shook my head slowly and managed to get him to sit up against the wall.
"M...Mikey...." he said, squinting his eyes at me and I shook my head lightly."I love you man...." he he said loudly and drunkly, leaning heavily on me and laughing. "I...I fell over...I think I broke something..." he laughed some more.
"Gerard....why....no...don't answer that now..." I sighed and looked around. He was pretty far from the bus and I knew with the size difference I wouldn't be able to help him much, and I doubted he'd be able to make it there himself. Gerard closed his eyes, grinning lopsidedly.
"Hm...why is the world spinning Mikey? it's like one of those...one of those...thingies...like...at the play ground..." he said after he opened his eyes, lookign at me.
"because you're drunk Gerard..." I said softly and shook my head again, standing up to pull out my phone.
"are you gonna go get some jello?" he asked, staring up at me with his blood shot eyes.
"What? No...I'm callign Ray to come pick us up..." he said, dialing Ray's cell phone number. "Hey...Ray..." I started.
"Hey Ray..." Gerard laughed. "that rhymes..." he laughed some more. and I sighed.
"We have a problem here...can you come pick Gerard and I up? We're infront of a large office building down the street from where the bus is parked," I said and winced, hearing GErard's dinner make a second apearance all over the concrete. "no...no need to call 911, Gerard will live..." If noone kills him because of this I thought after words. "You'll see when you get here..." I said and hung up, moving to hold my brother's hair out of the way for him. It had been a long time since I had to do this, and I wished I never would have to do it again. It wasn't long until I saw the bus and it pulled up along side the curb. Ray came out and helped me lift Gerard up and away from the puddle of his own vomit and onto the bus.
"What happened?" Ray asked, lookign at me.
"I found him surrounded by people, and a news reporter..." I shook my head lightly with a sigh. "I didn't call you much later..." I don't know how long he's been drunk or how long he had been laying there..." I stated. "We'll just have to wait until he's sober to talk to him and keep an eye on him until then..." I shrugged.
"Yeah....ok....I tried talking to Frank...he's mad...well...more upset than angry really...he thinks that this is going to be it...that this is going to be the end of this relationship and there's nothign anyone can do to save it..." Ray said softly.
"Does he know that Gerard got drunk?" I asked softly.
"He does now..." Frank said angrily, coming into the room. "I cna't believe him damn it! After everything! He promised! You promised Gerard!" He slapped GHerard who only whined and swatted at Frank's hand.
"Frank stop it..." Ray stood up and grabbed Frank's hands. "calm down....getting mad right now will only make things worse..." he said and took Frank out of the room. I sighed and covered GErard up, going to get him a trash can incase he had to throw up some more.
"We're going to talk when you're sobver..." I said, though he was out before one word could leave my mouth. I sighed softly and couldn't believe Gerard had done this again, after all he had acomplished, it was all down the drain. I stood up and went to find Ray and Frank. They were sitting on Frank's bunk silently, and they both looked at me when I entered the room.
"Is he ok?" Frank asked softly, clearly worried about him.
"Yeah...he's sleeping now..." I said softly and climbed up next to Frank. "You know he loves you right?" I asked, rubbing his back gently.
"Of course I know that...but I'm just...confused. He loves me and I love him so so much but...he doesn't want anyone to know about it. I mean...it's been hard enough to keep it a secret, but I have, and now that you two are out it's even harder because of all the media that's around and the fact that we can know now that it's not going to be the end of the world if we come out, but he still doesn't want to and I just don't understand why," he said without taking a breath.
"Frank...breath..." Ray said softly.
"sorry..." he muttered.
"Frank...Gerard is...confusing soemtimes...and we all know that....he just needs to know that you love him and that nothign can or will change that...." I said looking at him. "just talk to him...calmly and don't get angry...Gerard won't get angry if you don't..." I nodded, smilign softly at him. "just try ok? He'll come around...He loves you...that's very obvious and Gerard isn't about to give you up..." I nodded.
"You really think so?" Frank asked. "because I...I don't want to lose him...I want to spend the rest of my life with him..." Frank said softly, looking at his lap.
"Aw...yes Frank...I really think so..." I grinned, hugging him. "just tell him what you just told me...and everything will be great....promise," I nodded, kissing him on the cheek. "and maybe someday I'll be your brother-in-law," I laughed and hopped down before he could hit my shoulder.
"Oh shut up Mikey..." he laughed, shaking his head and lay down to try and take a nap. Ray slid down and took my hand gently, leading me out of the room.
"Have I told you lately how amazing you are?" he asked softly with a smile and kissed me gently.
"Hm...no...but I can't be nearly as amazing as you..." I grinned, wrapping my arms around him and kissed him back happily, resting my head against his shoulder lightly with a soft sigh.
It seemed like forever before Gerard finally woke up, much more sober, but feelign like crap. I brought him some asprine and orange juice and sat beside him. "Gerard...we should talk...about why you did this..." I said softly, watchign him as he took the arpine happily.
"I'm sorry Mikey..." Gerard said softly. "so sorry..." he whipsered, leaning into me and closing his eyes trying to prevent his own tears from coming. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed the top of his head, strokign his upper arm slowly.
"shh...Gerard...I just want to know why you did it..." I whispered as I held onto me brother.
"I just....I'm scared Mikey...." he whispered. "so scared..."
"Scared of what?" I asked him softly.
"That I'm going to lose Frankie..." he continued in his hushed tone.
"Why would you lose him?"
"because....because of all the pressure...all the publicity...all the lies and rumors people will come up with if we come out together..." he held onto me. "but I just...I can't tell him that..."
"Gerard....you're nto going to lose him...he loves you so much...you can tell him anything...and you might be surprised..." I said softly, trying to sooth his fear.
"How do you know Mikey? How can you be so sure?"
"because he knows things..." came a voice from the doorway and Frank walked over to sit next to Gerard, movign some hair out of his face. "Gerard...I love you more than life itself...more than the the universe we live in, more than the air that keeps me alive.../you/ keep me alive..." he said, takign his hands slowly into his own. "you will never lose me...I can't let you lose me..." he said and I quietly took my leave to let them talk things over in private. I went and found Ray with his guitar, practicing something in the back of the bus.
"What are you doing?" I asked smilign at him as I sunk into a chair across from him.
"Oh....nothign much...just goofing off realy..." he chuckled softly and smiled at me. "What are you doing?" he asked, setting his guitar aside and opening his arms invitingly and I moved itno his warm embrace.

"Nothing...Gerard and frank are talking....everything's going to be ok..." I smiled, nuzzlign my face into his shoulder with a happy sigh.
"I'm glad..." he said softly as he held onto me. "It won't be much longer...then we can go home.." he said softly with a smile as he held onto me. I knew the tour wasn't far from its end, then we'd go home. I wasn't sure if I was looking forward to going home this time. Everythign would be different. I was going home with a boyfriend, a boyfriend that I love very very much, and I knew that Gerard anf Frank have been going out for like, forever, yeah, thigns would probably different, but it would be a good different. We stayed like that, singing softly together as the bus rolled on. Everythign finally fell silent, both of us half asleep, Bob probably out for the night and God only knows what Gerard and Frank had ended up doing. We fell asleep there, it was late and we were tired, it's that simple.
I was woken up by the bus coming to a stop late the next morning and I careully removed myself from Ray's arms and went to find who was up. I almost walked in on Gerard and Frank conserving water by showering together, but luckily I heard them both before I opened the bathroom door.I smiled and shook my head, heading into the kitchen to get my cup of coffee. I whined rather loudly seeing it wasn't made already. I started it and moved to stand, arms folded on the counter and head on my arms, my usual "wait for coffee impatiently" stance. Gerard had made the coffee every morning on tour so far, but nooo he had to be taking a shower with his boyfriend and not worrying about the needs of his only brother.
"Aw...is Mikes upset because his coffee isn't ready?" Ray asked, coming up behind me laughing softly and hugged me.
"It's not fair! he's suposed to take care of meeeeee!" I whined, leaning back into his chest and sighed dramaticaly.
"The world is not going to end if you don't get your coffee right away,"
"yes it is!" I pouted, bring over dramatic...but I didn't really care at that point. "It takes tooooooooooo looooooooooong...." I dragged out my words. I knew I was acting very childish, but I didn't care at that point, I wanted my coffee damn it!
"Breath Mikes....it'll be done shortly..." he tried to soothe me by petting my hair. I leaned into him and closed my eyes, just about back asleep because of it.
"Good morning you two," Gerard said smilign as he came into the kitchen and I whined, havign been almost asleep and Gerard's voice pulled me back out of it. This also remnded me that my coffee wasnt; ready and it was all his fault!
"Yeah...goodmorning...please...don't give me good morning...it's not a good morning until I have my coffee!" I stomped my foot and Gerard sighed.
"I'm sorry Mikey...I was busy...and I just kind of...forgot..."
"Oh...so you just go and forget about your only brother because you were too busy being with your boyfriend! He's more important than me isn't he?!" I frowned and crossed my arms.
"Oh Mikey....don't be like that...you know nobody could ever be more important to me than you..." he said and moved to wrap his arms around me and held me close.
"I know....I'm just grumpy you know that...." I mumbled into his shoulder as I held onto him, closing my eyes with a sigh.
"I know you are Mikey...but you're coffee should be done soon..." he said, looking over at the coffe pot and I smiled.
"Hm...yay.." I looked over and let go of him when Frank came into the kitchen and I looked at the coffee pot, waiting. Finally it was done and I got my cup of coffee. I sat down at the kitchen table, drinking my coffee happily. Frank wrapped his arms around Gerard and whispered something in his ear that caused Gerard to grin and blushed.

Ray looked over at Gerard and Frank and shook his head. "Oh come on you guys...take it out of the kitchen..people are trying to keep down their breakfast..." Ray laughed and Frank stuck his tongue out at him before turning around to take Gerard out of the room, grabbing his ass on the way out, grinning back at Ray and winking with a laugh. Ray just shook his head and sat down across from me.
"What?" I asked smilign over at him and he shrugged lightly.
"Not a thing Mikes..." he said grinning at me.
"O...k....now you're creeping me out..."
"What? Can't a guy look at his boyfriend?"
"Well...yeah...you can...it's just..w.eird...you're like...staring at me..." I laughed.
"So? I like lookign at you...you;re so cute..." he said smilign and I could feel the heat rising in my cheeks.
"I am not...you're just saying that..."
"No really...you're probably the best lookign person I've ever had the pleasure of knowing..." he countered, leaning over to kiss him. "Hm...and you taste good..."
"That's just because I drank some coffee..." I chuckled smiling. Once it was gone, we both stood up and went to get some work done for the day. We all just hung out and goofed off for the most part that day, needing to kill time during the bus ride. We all collapsed that night, glad that there would be a show the next day. The next week and a half went by pretty much the same, playing shows and just hanging around the bus, but the last concert was now upon us.
"Come on guys!" gerard yelled and we all were standing infront of him, dressed and ready. "Ok..this is the last concert of the tour...now...let;s get out there and do what we do best..." he said smilign at all of us. We all need and clapped each other on the back. I kissed Ray happily before picking up my bass.
We all headed onto stage as usual and started the show like always. Near the end though, Gerard stopped and nodded over to Frank who crossed the stage to him, standing next to him.
"Almost two weeks ago...Mikey and Ray were outed and...it was difficult at first...but they got through it and they weren't cowards..." he said, smiling over at me and Ray. "and...it made me relize that...that I was being the biggest coward...on the face of the planet...and I shouldn't be...because what I really was ebing...was ashamed...and...I'm not that at all..." he said and reached over, taking Frank's hand into his own. "For...the most amazing two years, 7 months, and 9 days of my life...I've been dating Frank Iero...and I'm so madly in love with him...and I shouldnt have hid it for this long..." he said and looked at Frank, who clearly hadn't been expecting this. "I love you Frank...I always have and I always will..." he said smilign and pulled him in for a passion filled kiss as the whole crowd cheered. Ray, Bob, and I were clapping and cheering as well.
They finally broke apart and just smiled at each other before finishing up the concert. We played an even longer show than usual. We all headed out to the bus once everythign was packed back away and we were happy to be going home tomorrow.
Frankie crawled into Gerard's bunk and cuddled up into him and smiled, kissing him lovignly. "Gerard...what you did tonight....that was...that was the most amazing thing anyone's ever done for me..." he said softly as he looked at him.
"Well..it was all true...what I was doing by hiding it...wasn't fair to you....wasn't fair to anyone...and I didn't want anyone to think I was ashamed of it...of us because I'm not...I'm so blessed to have you Frankie...I love you so much and nothign will ever change that..." he said softly.
"gerard...." Frank smiled at him. "will you...will you move in with me?" he asked softly, stroking Gerard's hair slowly.
"Really?" gerard's eyes went wide, but he smiled.
"Really...I want to spend as much time with you as humanly possible Gerard..." he stated.
gerard smiled at him. "of course Frankie...of course I'll move in with you..." he grinned and kissed him back happily
"Great! I'll help you move your stuff..." he said smilign and cuddled closer to Gerard.
I smiled, hearign the conversation as I lay in my bunk, slowly running my fingers through Ray's mess of hair as he slept beside me. He was so cute as he slept, so peaceful. I wanted our relationship to last as long as Gerard's and Frank's had, and even longer. I love him so much and I would give anythign for him. I eventually fell asleep cuddled into him and slept happily.
The next few weeks went by fast. He got all of gerard's stuff moved itno Frank's house. It was weird, just havign the whole house to myself, thoguh Ray spent a lot of time there and often spent the night which was nice. Everything cruised along nicely for a few months, nothign real serious happening. Ray practically lived with me now, so nothign really changed when he officially moved in. Life was good, and I didn't even know it could get better. We worked on our next album, slowly but surely it was coming together and we finally released it. It was a hit and life was still good. December 23rd rolled around and everyone got togetehr for a huge Christmas feast and we exchanged gifts afterwards. It was a great Christmas and we all went home, full and happy.
The next day, Gerard and Frank came over for awhile and we all sat around and laughed and joked the whole day. Frank and Gerard left around 4:30, Frank saying he had somthing he wanted to do.
"Ok Gerard...I want to take you somewhere..." Frank said smilign over at him. "but, you have to let me blindfold you..." he chuckled, grinning.
"Oh come on Frankie.....why do you have to blindfold me?" he asked smilign at him.
"Because...just....pelase?" he asked smiling
"Oh fine..."
"Yay!" Frank laughed and pulled out a long, silky black piece of cloth and tied it around his head. Frank smiled and turned the car on, heading off down the road. He stopped and took Gerard out of the car, carefully leading him inside.Once he made sure they were in the right spot, Frank carefully untied the blindfold and Gerard looked around before lookign back at Frankie. They were at the New Jersey State Aquarium. It was quiet,. all of the kids at home with their parents, spending the holiday with them. The only reason it stayed open on Christmas was because the owner didn't celibrate Christmas and he couldn;t afford to close for the holiday.
"Frankie..." Gerard said softly, smiling. "why'd you bring me here?" I asked softly as he looked at him.
"Because...it's the place I asked you out...remember?" he asked softly.
"How could I forget...three years ago...nowhere else wa sopen...so we came here..." he said smiling.
"Yeah..." Frank smiled and bit his bottom lip softly, his hand shoved itno his pocket. "Gerard...the past three years have been....so amazing...so...completely perfect...well...almost perfect..." he started slowly. "When noone else believed in me...you did...when I fell you picked me up...and you proved to me that...no matter how completely screwed up the world can get....that...that it didn't matter because you loved me and that was all that mattered...because without your love...nothing mattered..." he said softly and pulled out a small box, looking down at it before looking back up at Gerard. "Gerard,,,what are you lanning on doing with the rest of your life?" he asked softly as he sunk down to one knee. "Gerard Way...my life wasn't complete until you came into it..." he said soflty and gerard looked down at him, smiling softly. "and...you know that....I'm not good at things like this...and I'm not good at doing things...the traditional way...but here goes nothing...Gerard Way...will you marry me?" he asked, showing him the thin gold band. Gerard smiled and gently pulled him up, kissing him lovingly. "Frankie...I love you....and as for what I do for the rest of my life...I don't care as long as it's with you..." he said smilign and let Frank put the ring on his finger. TThey stood there for the longest time, hugging each other and kissing in the soft light of the fish tanks around them. gerard knew it was illegal, but that didn't bother him, he would figure out a way to get around it, even if they had to fly to a state that would marry them.
"Merry Christmas Gerard..." Frankie whisered.
"Merry Christmas Frankie..." he responded and kissed him again, taking his hand nd tacing his fingers with him as he gently took him back out to the car, knowing that they would be kicked out soon enough. Both knew that that night, would be just like the night Frnak had asked Gerard out. They went home and spent the rest of the night together, and they didn't get much sleep. They spent most of the next day sleeping, cuddled together under the blankets as the snow fell outside the window. Once Gerard woke up, he slowly pulled awya from Frank and went to call me.
"Hey Ray....is Mikey there?" he asked smiling.
"Yeah, hold on Gee," he said and gave me the phne with a smile.
"Hey bro....how are things?" I asked smiling.
"Mikey....things are....things are amazing..." Gerard said smiling.
"Really? Wow....what happened?" I asked with a laugh, smiling.
"Last night...after we left...Frankie took me to the aquarium!" he said excitedly, but I didn't get the significance of it.
"O...k....that's...cool..." I said.
"Mikey! Frank took me to the aquarium! That's where he first asked me out! He...he asked me to marry him!" he said excitedly and my eyes went wide and I nearly dropped my glass.
"Are you serious Gerard!? I'm so happy for you!" I said happily and Ray looked at me confused. "Frank asked Gee to marry him!" I said and Ray grinned widely, taking the phone from me.
"Congrats man! You two totally diserve the best!" he said smiling and I took the phone back.
"yeah! Gee I'm so happy for you...wow...you so have to call mom...she'll be estatic!" I said happily.
"I'm going to...right now...so I'll talk to you later ok Mikey? I love you bro,"

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